thinking about: this scholarship application, etc.
listening to: knives & pens, black veil brides.
wearing: ultra-short denim shorts (what can i say? i’m a slut), white vneck.
included tags: $20,000 scholarship, messages, boys, theme.
[ REBLOGGED FROM LACETTE.TUMBLR.COM ] so right now i’m supposed to be working on a scholarship application as per my parents’ wishes, but they’re out checking out the lakehouse before we head over there at the end of the month. which i’m beyond stoked for, by the way. however, hours of working and writing about my future plans, work experience, and achievements really gets quite redundant after awhile. so alas, here i am, composing an entry with no real point whatsoever. though again, this scholarship is worth $20,000 and due at the end of the week, so maybe i should really get back to work.. that vanderbilt tuition (granted that’s where i end up attending) won’t pay for itself.
anyway. quite a few people have been messaging me lately, and while i don’t mind answering questions (actually, i love it), i hate my blog turning into what looks like a giant q&a session. THEREFORE, i’m thinking about disabling anonymous — or the messaging feature altogether — and setting up an email address specifically for questions, comments, etc. or a formspring so that the anonymity option is still available for you shy ones who have questions. if you have a preference, please don’t feel afraid to drop a comment in my askbox!
as;ldkjfas;lkj hmmmm, on the level of my personal-personal life.. i don’t know. i really don’t want to post about ben because to be honest nothing new has even happened in the slightest. i haven’t said a word to him since that night and him likewise. i saw him when he came into the store the other day, and when i glanced up i did happen to catch him staring in my direction, but that’s the closest we’ve even come to making any sort of contact. i’m (attempting, at least) not stressing over the entire situation, because i know that — like he said — nothing was actually wrong between either of us so there’s nothing i did wrong / could do to make up for it. i’m just giving him and the entire situation and time and what will happen will happen. but still, it sucks. a lot. he’s been pretty much my entire life for the past 2 years. i’m not actively searching for anyone else because although i’m not clinging to my past relationship with ben, i’m trying to just be 100% happy on my own.. because let’s be honest here, i haven’t been single for any extended period of time since the seventh grade. some guys have been talking to me and i have a movie date coming up, but as far as i’m concerned they’re all just friends. including eric. that was a mild rebound flirtation and i guess we still talk a lot, but nothing has really happenednor do i want anything to.
..okay. now i should really get back to this application before my parents get back to find that i’ve truly accomplished nothing in their absence. ciao!
ps — have you noticed that i’m a chronic theme changer?